I’ve tried going to Slimming World and Weight Watchers numerous times. I’ve tried counting calories using apps and websites. I’ve tried following dietitians advice. And when I do follow these plan, it works and I do lose weight.
The problem is when I stop.
I’m a typical yo-yo dieter. I follow a healthy eating plan and lose weight, and then something happens – usually a bit emotional upheaval – and then I stop the eating healthily, and over time I regain all the weight I lost and often some more!
I know it’s wrong, and I am ashamed of my actions, but I can’t help myself. I reach for food as an emotional crutch and as a reward. My portion sizes for main meals are too big, and I also eat a lot of sugary snacks during the day.
So what are my options?
I could stay obese, and gradually over the years get bigger and bigger until my weight kills me. Or I could take the somewhat drastic action and go down the surgical route.
And so, in the next few months I’m going to have a gastric bypass.
It’s both scary and exciting at the same time. Scary, because it means that my relationship with food is going to change, and exciting because it’s my best hope of getting to and hopefully maintaining a healthy weight.
I’ve already gone though the preliminary stages of being evaluated by the bariatric team in the hospital, and at this stage I’m just waiting for a date for my surgery!